nicht alles ist Gold was glänzt..

Remember those days when you didnt care about the way you look.. when you could just walk out the door without thinking "okay,. I look like crap"?... I can. Nowadays I see 12 year old girls running around like I do when I go out.. with the little difference that they are on their way to school. I loved my childhood, and as I look back I am glad as fuck that I had an actual childhood.. Thanks mom & dad that you gave me the love I always needed and still need.. thank you for taking care of me .. I hope I make you proud . I love you <3

I love you

The eyes are the window to the soul..

Are old times, always good times?

I remember those days,. feels like yesterday.
Hanging out with these weird looking people, sitting inside of double coffee.
Chating, smoking, laughing.

Somethimes when I think back I miss it a tiny bit. Because I had nothing to fear and I had a super strong personality because of all the people that looked at me strange.
I didnt care.

 

But then I changed.

 

And I don't regret it.
Love my live, character,. to say it simple.. I love the way I am! And you should love yourself! <3

 

Just a simple truth

 

<3 :(

xxx

 

Coming soon

How could you..

Do you know the feeling when you are dying inside..
I had it yesterday, I couldnt speak and I almost couldnt breath..
I felt so alone eventhough he was sitting right in front of me but he was the reason.
He humiliated me,. Telling me that he would decide himself for the other thing that he loves more than me
gave me a kick in my heart.
I never thought that he could hurt and dissapoint me that much.
I miss the person you have been ... like 4 years ago,. But now we grow up.. and we have to handle it.
I really hope that we can figure it out because I dont want to lose you,. <3

Finger Eleven - I'll Keep Your Memory Vague 

This won't break your heart
But I just think it could
Cause I haven't tried as hard as I should
To separate you from everything I do
But I would never want to come between us two

I'll keep your memory vague
So you won't feel bad about me
I'll say the things that you said
Sometimes so it reminds me

Now I'm thinking back
To what I said before
I hope your heart won't have to hurt anymore
Cause it's really not that sad from here
Because the moments I can feel you near
They keep you close to me my dear
And if they ever become too clear...

Now you've gone away
Don't worry it's ok
That you're gone away
Further than yesterday
But you'll never leave these scenes
My mind replays

Where in the world have you gone now?