Are old times, always good times?

I remember those days,. feels like yesterday.
Hanging out with these weird looking people, sitting inside of double coffee.
Chating, smoking, laughing.

Somethimes when I think back I miss it a tiny bit. Because I had nothing to fear and I had a super strong personality because of all the people that looked at me strange.
I didnt care.

 

But then I changed.

 

And I don't regret it.
Love my live, character,. to say it simple.. I love the way I am! And you should love yourself! <3

 

Just a simple truth

 

<3 :(

xxx

 

Coming soon

How could you..

Do you know the feeling when you are dying inside..
I had it yesterday, I couldnt speak and I almost couldnt breath..
I felt so alone eventhough he was sitting right in front of me but he was the reason.
He humiliated me,. Telling me that he would decide himself for the other thing that he loves more than me
gave me a kick in my heart.
I never thought that he could hurt and dissapoint me that much.
I miss the person you have been ... like 4 years ago,. But now we grow up.. and we have to handle it.
I really hope that we can figure it out because I dont want to lose you,. <3

Finger Eleven - I'll Keep Your Memory Vague 

This won't break your heart
But I just think it could
Cause I haven't tried as hard as I should
To separate you from everything I do
But I would never want to come between us two

I'll keep your memory vague
So you won't feel bad about me
I'll say the things that you said
Sometimes so it reminds me

Now I'm thinking back
To what I said before
I hope your heart won't have to hurt anymore
Cause it's really not that sad from here
Because the moments I can feel you near
They keep you close to me my dear
And if they ever become too clear...

Now you've gone away
Don't worry it's ok
That you're gone away
Further than yesterday
But you'll never leave these scenes
My mind replays

Where in the world have you gone now?

I'm scared

Is he still the person that I love?
I'd love to give him his freedom but I am scared because something happend..
I dont want to lose him.
But what am I suppose to do? Its been ages since I felt that he loves me.
Anyway, I have to change my point of view.
I miss the one he once was. </3

SOUTH AFRICA

Okay,. I got for my birthday the best presents ever.
My boyfriend gave me a super awesome amazing ring which is sparkeling like crazy from swakrovski
and I love it so so so much!..
My friend Laura (I have a blog with her as well) and my BF and I were upstairs when my mom called us down
and my present for my mom on her birthday was a song and then she and my aunt said something like "yeah u made a song for her so we made one for you" and then they began to sing and I blushed like crazy haha.
And the last part of the song I couldnt really understand it was something like "fly, Africa and a few days".
haha I looked at them and asked "what did you say?", and they startet smiling and were glad that their suprise worked out so well.
SOOO I'M FLYING 2 SA AGAIN on saturday :) really cant wait 2 see my "family" again hehe.

Gna miss my boyfriend like crazy.

Yesterday we went togerther with my mom, dad and bro to the ice hockey game from my cousin.
It was one of the two super important games but he lost it :'( yeah that wasnt sooo cool but hey,.
next weekend they have 2 win with 3 goals more then the others.
And I really think he can make it..

SO GUYS STAY AS SEXY AS YOU ARE :D

2 days left

Ja, in 2 tagen ist es endlich soweit.. ich bin halt echt aufgeregt.
Mein freund meinte, dass er das beste geschenk hat, besser als all die, die er mir jemals
zuvor gekauft/geschenkt hat.
Und dann schreibt er mir eine sms mit dem inhalt "ah, kannst kaum erwarten dein gesicht zu sehen".
Ja, macht mich halt fast nicht neugierig.

Bin heute zum ersten mal in meiner neuen klasse, ziemlich strange.
Meine mama hat gestern meine fingernägel gemacht mit rosa glitzender spitze - schön :)